(k)uantan

i reach.. i reached kuantan finally..
was away from KL again for the hols, its raining all the while driving from KL to Kuantan.. well, kuantan is better than wat i thought of.. i thought its just a small town.. but, its quite big as well...not as KAMPUNG as i thought of atleast...

was really tired.. the journey take around 3 hours to reach due to raining, n so do the tyre of my car...ITS DANGEROUS!!! will heading to TERRENGANU tomorrow, else than having hols rite here, the main purpose coming here is to pay a visit at the new mall at terrenganu, n for some bussiness purpose..

its 9.20 now.. i checked-in hotel vistana of kuantan half n hour ago, n the 1st things i do is switch on my laptop, n check out is there any line for my maxis broadband n so that i can come on9!! n i'm so happy that its work out, anyhow, this hotel do supply free wifi :) !! but since the maxis broadband workout... i will just keep v my wireless broadband!!

i'm sure its a boring trip here.. but m glad that my psp n laptop will kill off my boring days!! winks!! its sat night today.. i used to club to9, but today i gotta take off.. off for club!! frens there.. will miss u guys.. haha!!

m HUNGRY... i think i shud leave my butt to take my shower.. n out to the town for late dinner!!! its still raining HEAVILY outside .. SIGH!!!

HAPPY HOLS !!

痕

泪流了，擦干了，还是不听话的流，
好久好久， 没哭了，
伤得很痛很痛， 我想要哭出一切，
但强逼泪水，依然挤不出泪珠，
但这次，
我无法控制我的泪水，
是一路以来想哭，但却哭不出，所以这次哭得狠狠的，
把一切哭出来，
还是因为他？
因为他伤透了我的心？

我问他，他不回应，
我再问他，他还是不语，
我再再问他，他对我说， 对不起， 原谅我好吗？

一直以来，我都强调，
两个人的世界失去了信任也就没了意义，
长期的互相猜测，会换来更多的伤害，
你让我察觉，我可以说句，
你不够醒目，让我找到了你的痛脚，
我现向你告状，我就已清楚知道后果的严重性，
你无法解释，我不知道你在想么，
但，这代表了你默认， 你默认我说的是对的。。
我的心， 想听的是你的解释，
我的心， 想听的是你用美丽的谎言来安抚我伤痛的心，
但， 你就连一句也没说，
对不起， 对不起， 对不起，你相信我好吗？
就这么一句对不起？
我又如何说服我自己的心呢？

sha hai zi - olivia

傻孩子

看着你无暇的表情
我猜不透真实你的心
我一直冷静
却还是走不出这秘密
好孤寂
我开始失去了勇气
而你却好像在游戏
我假装清醒
看清你的心
终于我选择了离去
你像个孩子一样的被我看穿
在你面前我试着隐瞒
所有过去全都变成伤害
我像个傻子一样的被你出卖
一字一句都要我承担
到了最后我选择分开

我开始失去了勇气
而你却好像在游戏
我假装清醒
看清你的心
终于我选择了离去
你像个孩子一样的被我看穿
在你面前我试着隐瞒
所有过去全都变成伤害
我像个傻子一样的被你出卖
一字一句都要我承担
到了最后我选择分开
你像个孩子一样的被我看穿
在你面前我试着隐瞒
所有过去全都变成伤害
我像个傻子一样的被你出卖
一字一句都要我承担
到了最後我选择分开

Rehearsal of Life?

Since quite sometime i away from here... there is alot things i wish to blog here... but due to my broadband probs.. keep dc atleast 8 times aday make me fed up to blog.... was been to KLCC maxis last 9, hopefully i can on9 without any interuption anymore...

time pass so fast , its already middle of the month of DEC.. was really upset n dissapointed about myself, keep repeating my weaknesses , i feel that i'm really useless, mayb sudd alots of pressure from my job, i admit that i'm irresponsible..... was really lazy since the 2 month back.... n i think becoz of this... i had make more mistake as i never take those matter seriously ....

everything doesnt goes well as it shud goes?.... i doubt mayb i think too much? will i be more cheerful if i dont ever care bout it? definetely i will b more happy if i dun think that much..... else .. i cant Look into anyone that suitable for me to share my feelings... else than her.. ( well, i think u shud know who u r, if u reading this ) she do give me some opinion n encouragement.. n somehow v are facing the same probs as well..... thanks for that...

there is a new member in my house rencently... she is so cute n lovely, but she drives us crazy... i m so dissapointed for her , my dog, BARNEY... she keep barking everyday since vy early in the morning, everyone in the house had put alot effort into her... somehow she is still the same.... she will keep barking as no one around to accompany her... even in the night... mum was complaining n keep comparing Barney v my ex dog, Macy... sigh... i dunno how shud i train her... n my lil bro will going to NS next week... i will b fully taking care of her for 3 month .. shower, food n all... hopefully i can take good care of her...





i found out that i really lost my soul recently.. i m not the me,the cheryl i used to be, m worry bout myself how come i will be like this? i feel that i change, i cant handle alot of things myself as the previos cheryl do, i used to tell myself n convinced myself that ntg is impossible without anyone help... but recently i found out that i cant live independently... i wish there is someone who is really caring n know me to rely on....someone who can give me the shoulder instead of borrowing me when i need it....


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The moon is smiling!!

THE MOON IS SMILING!!
was MSN~ing , n khai yuin buzz me n telling me that the moon is smiling!!
but i was really lazy to walk out from my room, n to the balcony have alook....
as she told me thats once in the 60 yers, n also my lil sis telling me that she saw it , n its amazing... so i go n have alook... but i cant c anything as i standing outside my car porch !! i walk so far away from my house , as those others building blocking the scene... my neighbour sure wondering, WTH of this gal keep her head looking up to the sky .. like a SOH PO!! ahah..

neway, i saw the moon is smiling.. n its do cheer me up!!! i'm smiling when i saw its smiling too!! * was like a lil gal* *childish * :p


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HappY BirthdaY to u my dear MUM!!

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i feel that my post was abit outdated , as i always delay my post, but i'm really busy ,else, mell mell was using my laptop to chat v her bf everynight , i got no laptop to online *sob sob*.. seems lots ppl marrying n also birthday within this month, n so do my dear lovely MUMMY, her birthday is much more happening as comparing to the previous years, not just those normal celebrating DINNER, me n sis decided to have a SING K SESSION to celebrate v her together v frens n family, my grandma was invited as well .....i know that even there is just a normal gathering dinner plus a cake for her, MUMMY will feel happy of it, she dun like us wasting money for the celebrating, but ... me n sis, resist to do it!! Its really ONCE IN BLUE MOON , its good to improve our relatioship , chat , sing n playing around!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U, my lovely mum,

may all ur dreams come true.. ( i know u wish that everyone will obey to u.. hehe)

this is the VIP room at RED BOX, the curve... PSP is available as well, those who dun like to sing can play psp!! but the game is really limited!!

the room was spacious, there is another table in the corner as well, thanks to the staff for the recommendation of upgrating the room...

busy eating!!

my bro v grandma..

lil sis, ,mell mell

lil bro, chris..

3 sista *

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my grandma

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those who invited to attend the party!!

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DADDY N MUMMY

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lovely couple singing * wink*

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happy birthday to u, happy birthday to u,

happy birthday to mummy, happy birthday to u!!

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she got a warm kiss from her husband..

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she got a kiss from her youngest daughter

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Mummy cutting the cake!!

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mummy with her mother in law!!

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* woo*

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beer , beer , beer... but no beer kaki around!!

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m smoking!!

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would u like to have a drink v me?

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steve ..走音王子？ not i comment on u lo.. :p

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HaPpy ALwaYS!!

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i like the wall paper of the room..

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m not * talented* in this kind of pic!! hehe...

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boring pic??

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christmas is coming**

wondering wats my christmas plan...

mummy, still the same as everyyear.. I LOVE U!!

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I wan BeeR!!

i wan Beer, I wan drink....i need some music..
was calling n asking my dear fellow fren to HAPPY HOUR v me since thursdaY,
was kinda MOody STILL, n i feel to have some beer to cheer me up since the ICE CREAM nite cant brighten up my mood, but everyone seems so busy n ignore me on thurs nite,
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* my sis cant make it coz someone visiting her house
* evon said that she can make it after her late dinner
* khai yuin said that she is going to KUANTAN on friday
* Sam sudd FFK me after promise our happy hour session at AFTER 5

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so kesian ,always dump by my frens.. sigh....
n since evon say make it tomorrow, so v heading to Quattro happy hour..
only both of us for the night, do have some frens telling me that they are heading to Quattro
for club instead of happy hour, but kena FFK again, sigh!! i thought that i can meet em up to have some dance .. LOL.. always fly me kites!!
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we reach around 9.30pm , frankly , i still prefer clubbing more than happy hour,
but i was in happy hour mood, Quattro begins crowded around 12, as the clubbing night start,
so me n evon thought of leaving around 12.30... as we are leaving, i meet up my fren IAN at the entrance.. so we stay another half an hour ... N , tonight, me n evon do have a visit at the WINTER of Quattro... its freaking Cool inside.. so after having some nice shot for pic.. we CABUT..

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beer beer... she said v will have more happy hour session*
only available if she's not jobless... (=.=)"



the snacks not bad...

its so cold.. so v hug each other.. LOL..

the friendly Ian n me


WInter of Quattro

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There is always Frens around me...

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i got 3 date last night but i only able to meet up 2 frens....
well, i date khai yuin to have tom yam dinner again .. but becoz mum had cooked so v gotta cancel the dinner n just go for ice-cream at Desa Parkcity.. my another fren who gotta same name as her,khai yuin , named KAI YUN, date me to Desa Parkcity as well, for a drink n also visiting his new house at Desa Parkcity.... but i choose to meet up KHAI YUIN.. instead of him .... n i was so blur.. i replied the msg to khai yuin where suppose i'm replying to KAI YUN .. telling him i cant make it...confusing duh.. n khai yuin thought i cancel her date !!
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Ms KHAI YUIN, i know u DATE me 1st, thats y i meeting u up ..LOL

new zealand ice cream

can see she eating ice-cream so happily.... i know u having hols n ur babe was *indifferent* LOL..

we left early after finish our ice-cream and heading to Tmn Ehsan to meet Mr ENG...

i feel so young when i be v both of em.. LOL... i wish i'm still studying , but khai yuin always say that she feel to work.. I nv thought of they will bring me to malay stall. hey, i heart the BAKAR KERANG u introduce, next time will try out the tom yam..

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MR ENG.. i found out that u are quite humurous n too confident v urself sumtimes..

too too too confident n become LC.. aahhaa.. next time i will date u on public hols for a movie .. :p

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i'm still moody currently , but m happy that , they are still frens around for me when i need em,

n also my on9 boutique, LIL DRESS ROOM , i received quite alot of order for this batch once i post up, but i'm still moody too.. i dunno wat m i moody~ing , probably everything mix up my feeling, n i really hate this feeling so much... i need someone beside me, just to accompany me ....

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待晴

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天色灰暗，天空又下起雨来,
最近， 雨一直在下，
而我却爱上了天空落泪的哭声，
嘀嗒嘀嗒的声音，
陪伴我整个上午与夜晚，
以前，我讨厌下雨，
最近， 我却爱上了雨天..
让我的思绪也变得清晰，
企图把一些些的画面平拼凑起来，
但脑袋却一片空白，
无法记起，抽象得很，
我发现，原来不关时间蹉跎，
就这么刚刚过去的画面，
也没有一丝丝的记忆..
而永远忘不了， 很清晰的画面，
其实是来自心里的一份执著....
你看似那么的近，但却又那么的陌生...

有时候强忍泪水，
泪水还是不听话的流下，
有时候很想哭，
想哭出一切一切压抑在心里的不安，
但却一滴泪也流不出来..
是因为经历，所以坚强？
因为坚强了， 所以没泪了？
多么的讽刺...

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自我了解的一个夜晚

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02.39.08 ，一个人的夜晚，
有多久没享受这么静的一个晚上？ 我不记得 ，
这晚，特别的宁静，
爸妈出游了，弟弟因要专心考试所以搬了出去，
妹妹去了友人的家过夜.....



不小心发现了某些事，
我爱自由但却又不想你对我不理不睬，
自相矛盾很恰合形容现在的心情，
我想给你自由，因为我自己也想得到自由，



我很想问你很多事情，但我不会去过问，
因为我不希望你会换回来问我这些问题，
我选择去探测.....
探测你是真的还是假的,
你是对的，我错了？



你和他人约会，我不喜欢，我在意，
但我还是会笑着脸，装着满不介意的，扮大方的叫你去，
因为我不想你阻止我和他人约会...
我选择掩饰我心中的不满..


你约了我， 但因为有些事，
你放了我鸽子，
我生气， 但我还是会说，
不用紧，
真的不爽，但我不会表露出来，
反而， 我会说，
友人也约了我，你忙你的吧..
为的是，给自己个后台..



你问我的问题，我不想回应，
但我会尝试去回答，
因为我不想当我问你时，你沉默不语....


我不喜欢吃的东西，你喜欢，
我不会告诉你我不欢喜，
我希望你也会陪我享受我喜欢而你不喜欢的食物...


你吩咐我跟你报道我的行踪，
我就越不想让你知道我往哪去，
我不想我让你控制，
也不想这变成习惯，
反而你不问我， 我自动会告诉你...


你对我冷淡，我会对你更冷淡，
我不想你知道我原来这么在乎你...




我，我就是想，
不想让你，让他知道我是怎样，
我不想把我，让你看透，
不想让人了解...
对自己往后有条不难走的路......



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Deepavali HoLs (2)

to be continued.....


its seems outdated for this post, but well as i stated to be continue....
so i must continue... LOL..
where had i been to during my deepavali hols?
i went to BKT TINGGI...
ntg much rite there actually,
its kinda hot actually, its not cooling at all..
the environment at japanese village dissapointed me,
coz i dun feel any japanese culture around..
the TATAMI SPA was closed .. i not sure whether is under renovation,
or its really closed..
but its good to have some pic...

i like this pic ..

the sisters

can u see there is a bus?? but v prefer to use our LEG!!

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gang of the day!!!

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wats a boring DEEPAVALI hols!!!