time pass so fast , its already middle of the month of DEC.. was really upset n dissapointed about myself, keep repeating my weaknesses , i feel that i'm really useless, mayb sudd alots of pressure from my job, i admit that i'm irresponsible..... was really lazy since the 2 month back.... n i think becoz of this... i had make more mistake as i never take those matter seriously ....
everything doesnt goes well as it shud goes?.... i doubt mayb i think too much? will i be more cheerful if i dont ever care bout it? definetely i will b more happy if i dun think that much..... else .. i cant Look into anyone that suitable for me to share my feelings... else than her.. ( well, i think u shud know who u r, if u reading this ) she do give me some opinion n encouragement.. n somehow v are facing the same probs as well..... thanks for that...
there is a new member in my house rencently... she is so cute n lovely, but she drives us crazy... i m so dissapointed for her , my dog, BARNEY... she keep barking everyday since vy early in the morning, everyone in the house had put alot effort into her... somehow she is still the same.... she will keep barking as no one around to accompany her... even in the night... mum was complaining n keep comparing Barney v my ex dog, Macy... sigh... i dunno how shud i train her... n my lil bro will going to NS next week... i will b fully taking care of her for 3 month .. shower, food n all... hopefully i can take good care of her...
i found out that i really lost my soul recently.. i m not the me,the cheryl i used to be, m worry bout myself how come i will be like this? i feel that i change, i cant handle alot of things myself as the previos cheryl do, i used to tell myself n convinced myself that ntg is impossible without anyone help... but recently i found out that i cant live independently... i wish there is someone who is really caring n know me to rely on....someone who can give me the shoulder instead of borrowing me when i need it....
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1 comment:
i think i know who is the person that you mentioned teehee. anyway, this is not your fault that you said are irresponsible, or maybe fuck up on something. is just some growing up process, because this might be the time that another changing process.
maybe you got influenced by someone that changes your decision, then it may leads the thinking that this is not yourself, is not what you want. try and think, what is the best for you, and do things without any regret on making decision, then you wont think that is difficult anymore.
cheer up ok. my advice just only can work a little bit for you. however, everything still depends on yourself. what is comfortable for you. what you should do and what you shouldn't do. ok? love <3
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